I'll Do Whatever It Takes

"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional." -M. Kathleen Casey

I knew I wouldn't stay away long. I guess I have too many things on my mind. I figured I would write just to feel like I had someone to talk to. Things have been interesting these past few days, and by interesting, it ironically means not interesting at all. I sit here thinking constantly about the bar exam, finals and moving. Relationships have been on my mind too, but that I am trying not to think about that. I've tried to play poker to get my mind off of things and even though I'm doing better than I ever have, I'm just not enjoying it as much as I should.

I've never been a very happy and excited person, but as of late, I must admit I have been feeling down. It really sucks because I know time will make everything better, but for now I just have to go through this. Things will be ok and I need to learn to not feel bad about stuff. I think I am just scared of change and the unknown.

Saturday I was supposed to go to my Aunt's house for a BBQ, but I was feeling sick so I decided to stay in. There were also plans for Marty Extravaganza this past weekend, but that too I bailed on. Instead, I figured I needed more time to myself. I pretty much picked up where I left off last weekend. I really need to move soon. Two more of my House DVDs came in and I watched another House marathon. I am totally useless, but it does make me happy. There was one House episode called "TB or not TB." I found the title to be very clever. It was about Tubercuosis. I forgot that that is what TB stood for. Just like other medical shows I watch, I have to cover my eyes when they show blood and insides. It is interesting how I would never want to be a doctor, yet the great show of Law and Order I don't watch, yet that is more up my alley. Maybe it is because I know there are so many of them and I could never watch them all. Is that weird, that I don't like to do things unless I can fully do it. I'm barely at the start of Season 2, but I'll be done soon enough and up to date with Season 3. I learned House was shot...I knew it. [update: I am up to date with the show]


I looked up how I spent Easter last year and this year seems very similar. Maybe next year will be more family oriented. I hope everyone had a nice holiday.

Sopranos is back. I was reminded in the Pooch Café cartoon I read daily. I don’t have HBO for some odd reason, so I’ll have to try to find the episodes to see them. I look forward to seeing them as a break during my bar exam studying.

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