Study Harder...ok then just Study

“I used to wake up at 4 A.M. and start sneezing, sometimes for five hours. I tried to find out what sort of allergy I had but finally came to the conclusion that it must be an allergy to consciousness.” - James Thurber quotes (American Writer, 1894-1961)

http://allergies.about.com/od/spring/a/blaafa041806.htm

2006 Spring Allergy Capitals (2005) (2004)

3. Boston, MA (47) (32)
9. Washington, DC (16) (97)
22. Syracuse, NY (42) (76)
23. Miami-Ft.Lauderdale, FL (100) (100)
96. McAllen, TX (76) (24)

And I thought I had it hard growing up. No wonder I didn't feel as sick in Miami.

I'm trying to study for finals. If you know me, then you know exactly what this is like and if you don't, then just feel sorry for my self-destructive behavior.

WSOP

Easter Monday

"Be a good listener. Your ears will never get you in trouble." - Frank Tyger

Saturday I had lunch with my aunt and uncle. It is always great seeing them. I probably talk to them too much about God, but they are very kind to me and I really appreciate that. It was a very good meal. Sometimes you can see that communication is usually the key to disputes between people. People see things from their own point of view and think the other person is being irrational, while the other person thinks the same thing. Sometimes people agree, but are upset over a smaller issue that lies in the background, something a simple apology could fix, but the bigger issue in the fore gets even bigger.

I spent Easter at home alone this year. I'm kind of starting to get the hang of spending hoildays alone. I took Koki for a walk (well she kind of takes me for a walk) and spend the rest of the day going insane from allergies. I spent a lot of time on the phone with family, so that helped.

This weekend a very close friend of mine unexpectedly lost his sister. It broke my heart to hear the news. Him and his family are in my thoughts and prayers. This is something that nobody should have to go through. All I could think about was the pain they must be going through and how little there is I could do to make it hurt less. When I lost my sister, he was there for me and that support I will forever be greatful for. I wish I could be down there. Hopefully his family will have the support of family and friends who will be there for them.

Herding Cats

"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." -Isaac Asimov

Classes are winding down and finals are 2 weeks away...I feel like I want to be done with school, but maybe it is because I'm working and going to school. I complain about this a lot. Instead of the best of both worlds, you get the worst of both. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy school and love my job, just miss the days of undergrad where I had the whole day to myself except when I should of been in class. Now each day I wake up like a normal working person, go to work and get to leave early (which is where my productivity would have ended in the real world anyway) and off to class. I guess I shouldn't complain, it does pay the rent and probably helps a lot with my poker habit/hobby/addiction/curse/fun.

Every Weds at work there are free donuts. I usually nab one before they are all gone. Today I didn't have one. Is that self control or did I just increase my donut craving. I have also been doing this thing where I make this green tea they have at work and drink one cup daily. At first I did it because tea has caffinee, or so I think, and I thought it might wake me up while maybe being good for me. So I'll keep drinking one and see how it goes.

I was thinking of going home for easter, but I can't justify flying to texas for less than 2 days. The next week my cousin is getting married, same thing, 2 days and I should probably be studying. Thing is that after finals I'll get to take a week off to go home, but then I'll probably want to enjoy the time to myself.

Do you know you can't take cats for walks? Doesn't stop me from trying. Maybe I should of started them out at kittens. Now they have a leash and harness, so they had better learn. Things I'll do on a sunny afternoon to not write that paper.

I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. This isn't the usual insomnia crap where my mind is racing, I think I just had too much caffinee in my system and my body couldn't calm down. At one point I woke up and thought, shit I'm going to die. Not like right now, but at some point. Then you get the quick, wow, I'm living here in this reality, but I'm going to die and I might go to heaven or cease to exist, but either way I'll never be the same me that I am right now. (At least I'm hoping I'll know more.) I don't much mind the idea of ceasing to exist or the heaven part since well I don't have much choice, I mind the part where I have to die. I've gone over it and there is just no good way. So I'm not worried about being dead, just about dying. I don't get these thoughts a lot, mainly because questioning your existance can kind of put you in a state of endless questions. I'd rather just live the life I got and pertend this is the world I live in and let everything sort itself out once I'm dead. Doesn't it sound morbid when I say the word dead? But last night, was one of those times it just popped in my head...but I put it aside and didn't think much of it after, but it always makes an impression.

there is something nice about "how was your day dear?"

Immigration

"Those who deny freedom to others, deserve it not for themselves; and, under a just God, can not long retain it." - Abraham Lincoln

April 10th is a nationwide day for immigration demonstrations. They are going on all around the country and even here in DC. I won't be going today, mainly because I have class during the time it is scheduled, and I don't have any friends that are going, so I wouldn't have anyone there with me. I also wonder, since the legislation feel through and now Congress is on a 2 week vacation, if they will even be around to see the demonstration.

Thanks to Rick, I found out that my MPRE score was out today. I am ethically legal in 50 states bitches! I needed an 85 for VA, FL and TX and I got more than 100, so I'm glad to have that out of the way. I was told it was harder than I might expect, and I guess I let that scare me a bit, but I should of trusted my gut. The test was by no means easy, but I'm glad I didn't read the entire book I had to study. One less thing I have to worry about. Now I just need to figure out a way to pass my classes and then go through my 2 months of Barbri hell and take my bar exam and start off my career.

More

no more thoughts about that

Lost Phone

"Remember, the mind likes to assume it "know what it knows" but often its perceptions are just not accurate. Yet strong judgments are made all the time based on limited information...When we judge someone and then adopt an attitude toward them, that shuts down other possibilities and locks us away from the insight of our hearts." - Doc Childre and Howard Martin

There are times when things are not going great that one tries to deal with them by cutting out everyone who is important in their life. That way, all you have left is you and the problems not associated with the people that have the greatest impact on you. It is a lonely way to approach the problem, but sometimes you feel like you have no choice. Sometimes people force you to do this and others its your own choice because you know what hurts now is probably better than what will hurt a little for a very long time. Then again, it might always hurt a little, so it just a way of feeling like you have some control over your life.

Check out my horoscope: Be happy with yourself and everyone around you, dear Capricorn. Stop trying to find fault with everyone you interact with. By criticizing everyone's habits, what they do, and how they do it, you may wake up one morning and you find that you have no more friends. By only seeing the bad in people, you may inevitably talk yourself out of a relationship with them. Be careful of coming across as always knowing the solution to everything. It is not your job to dictate or judge.

I am working this weekend. I probably need with money, but I don't really mind working, probably because it keeps my mind off of other things. Too bad it was raining, but the bad weather is sometimes nice, maybe because I don't feel as bad about not being outside doing stuff.

Mia, my cat, cut my pinkie open last night. This comes after I almost broke my nose the day before. Not been too much on the side of luck lately. So she was doing her normal thing of annoying the hell out of me in the morning and stratching and pawing my face so I can get up and feed her when I just covered my entire body with my blanket. Well I move my hand under the blanket and she sees it as a toy and from the outside she slashes at it with her nails that she would normally use to slash at a rats stomach to split open its guts (I actually read this somewhere)....well the nail goes through the blanket and digs into my pinky and she pulls. That pain woke me up, but I just decided to sleep on it instead of putting a bandaid on it. It wasn't until later that I see blood on my sheets and and notice she cut in pretty damn good. Not like stiches good, but like, stings like hell good.

I know this will make me sound like the coolest kid on the block, but I just finished watching the Star Trek: Deep Space Nine series. I think I saw that last few seasons, but it is nice to know how it finally ended. They show two episodes on Spike each day and I had been recording them.

You can judge a person by their inactions as well as their actions.

How far?

"Americans should select and prefer Christians as their rulers." - email from Aunt

So I got this forward email from an aunt. It was full of the country was founded on Christianity, so why do we need to remove it from government. The oppressed majority argument that upsets me. It was full of a lot of things I didn't agree with, but the quote I put up was the one that really hit me. I guess there are two ways of looking at it...but I seriously, rulers...They rule everything and they are so non-christian it drives me insane. Why have we let this type of people hijack Christianity. I'm Christian, but these people make worry that the message of Jesus doesn't mean as much as their hate.

Today I had a negotiation in class. It went well. The girl I worked with was really nice and it wasn't as bad as I expected. Now I have two papers left in this class and then I'll be done. Finals are so damn close.

Daylight Savings I enjoy becuase now when I get out of class, it isn't pitch dark. There is just something about not feeling like your entire day is over. I miss the sun, yet I'm not an outside person so many I should stop complaining about that.

are things normal

Florida

"Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none." - William Shakespeare

Florida won the NCAA tournament. I lost 7 dollars. I could of won 55 or lost up to 100. I bet in a way to win 8 bucks no matter who won...and then decided to press my luck and put more money on UCLA hoping for a comeback and resell, and that did not happen...hence, I lost 7 bucks at the end of it all.

My plan is to get through my day. I feel like that that is always my plan.

I hate spam, but worse, I hate forwards. Mainly people that forward. What bothers me more is that you get them from people who you thought were somewhat intelligent, yet they send you crap about resending or else you'll die or other stupid stuff. I have talked about this subject before with all my opinions on the topic. Well all my ranting and responses to people's emails (especially when sharing false information they say is fact), has gotten me off most people's forwards lists. I am happy for that. Well guess what? MySpace has made this problem even worse. At least they all go to bulletins that I can choose to visit or not, but it shows me how stupid people can be. I don't hate all forwards, but fuck, some of these are really stupid. I don't know how people are not embarrassed for sending that crap out...maybe the fear of being single for the next 45 years (most recent threat) is enough.

Today I noticed the cherry blossoms for the first time this year, which is fitting, especially since it is spring. Too bad we got a stint of cold weather.

just another day of another year

End of the Road

"Don't use a big word where a diminutive one will suffice." - Unknown

Well Mason is now at the end of the tournament. We lost a not too well played game against Florida. I would feel bad about their play, but LSU played so terribly, that it almost made Mason look good. I almost lost a lot of money on the game, and when I say a lot, I mean a lot. Long story short, a sure thing is not always a sure thing. You have to obey that feeling that tells you that too good to be true is probably too good to be true. Betting both sides of a game can win you money, but only if you pay attention to the details of your bets. In the end it all worked out and I broke even.

The part of my laptop that turns the screen off broke this weekend. It broke when I first got my laptop and when I sent it in to get fixed, I have always been very careful not to let it break. Well it is now broken and that is fustrating. I guess there is nothing I can do now, except make sure to turn my computer to standby before closing it. What can you do.

I had two friends come into town this weekend, but I only got to see one, Sam. Cynthia, I did not get to see. She was here for a friend's bday party and since I didn't attend the bday party, I didn't get to see her. I don't blame her for being upset at me for not being able to join them in whatever activities they were doing, but I have to admit, I was very fustrated with how the whole thing turned out and how things were. Either someone is my guest and I take responsibility for what is going on or they are someone else's guest and I can't control where they go, but you would think they would leave for a bit to go hang out with a friend instead of being at their disposal the entire time.

Sam came into town. I picked him up Friday. We didn't do anything too exciting, but there was a lot of drinking and poker, gambling and Madden. We all watched the Final Four on Saturday and even got to see V for Vendetta on Sunday. I had a good time, but now I have a lot of work I should be getting to since I wasn't too productive. That was probably my last weekend of fun.

Allergy season is now started and I am really feeling it. We have the windows open at our house because it is nice outside, but this is making me sneeze like no other. I have a love hate relationship with this part of the year.

many things on the mind