Tuesday, July 21st, was my younger sister Eliza's 28th birthday. She is growing up. I hope she had an enjoyable day with her girls. I think they are going to celebrate this weekend when everyone is in town. Those are the drawbacks of being away. Tuesday was also the day that my sister Vero's grave marker finally arrived and was set on her plot. This is such great news. We have waited 6 long years for something that should normally happen in months, but due to the way circumstances unfolded, it took years. The story may be a long one, but it has a happy ending. Everything was resolved and now my sister has a proper memorial. This makes me very happy and I can't wait to visit. My sister Eliza's birthday was a great day for this to fall on.
Of course this brings all these emotions to the fore and reminds me how much I miss my sister. Just thinking about it hurts sometimes. This is it though, my last year being younger than my sister Vero, I don't know why, but that moment is big for me. This made me go back and read entries I had written in the past about remembering my sister that have helped me cope. I thought I would share some thoughts I pulled out that I revisited.
Remembering - February 16, 2009
I miss you very much. I wonder how things would be different if you were still around. The wisdom I never got to learn from you. I could go off an how proud your girls make me, but you already know.
Five Years Gone By - February 16, 2008
I know that during your life you had to deal with the normal things I'm probably going through now. Bekkah is probably going through those types of teenage experiences now, and I'm sure you are giving her strength. She has your determination and people skills, so I try not to worry.
Letter to Vero on Jamie's Bday - September 8, 2007
There is so much I can say about the girls, but I'm sure you follow them much more closely than I get to. They are growing up to be so smart, caring, thoughtful and beautiful. I promise to try to be a good role model and uncle for them as I try for everyone else in our family. You taught them well and they really take after you in so many ways. They used to get extra love because they reminded me so much of you, but now they just get it for being their own wonderful selves.
Three Years in a Flash - February 16, 2006
As each year passes, you worry that memories will fade, that she will be the memory of my sister and not my sister. I don't know what to say when people ask me how many brothers and sisters I have. I remember the last time I was home, only two months before, sitting on her bed as she shared with me what was going on in her life, asking for my advice. And then you think that so many people go through this, sometimes in much worse ways and what kills you is that you know you are going to have to go through it again.
Veronica - February 26, 2003
This is something that is really hard to accept and I don't think I it has really sunk it yet. The pain I felt inside my stomach hurt more than I had ever experienced. I really don't know what to think or what to feel. On the one hand I'm sad because I miss my sister, but on the other I am happy for her because I have faith that she has moved on to bigger and better things.
Flickr Albums - My Sister Veronica
This also makes me realize how blessed I am to have two other great sisters, Ana and Eliza who I love much much. I'm very lucky to have them in my lives and can't describe how much they mean to me. I am lucky to have my entire family in my lives and I hope they realize that. A lot of things may go unsaid, but I hope it is communicated.
Ok, well back the mundane right, the daily thoughts on my mind that seem in comparison so inconsequential.
I was talking to a dear friend about goals and intentions the other day. It got me thinking about my own personal goals and all the categories I would put them in. I'm a person that works well with lists I think. You know, the type that even adds the non-list item to the list just to check it off right after I have done it. I figured I'd visit some of those lists. What are the things I want in my life? There is the abstract right, peace of mind, health, happiness and love. Then you have things I would aspire to, to be kind, thoughtful, patient, passionate, creative, and charitable. Then you have the petty material possession wants, such as a PS3, 3GS, other random gadgets, event tickets and whatnot. You also have the hobbies or skills, such as playing the guitar, keyboard, running a marathon (dare I saw triathlon), travel or being an awesome at salsa. The main goal on my mind right now though is owning a home. I know it is the American dream and people that can't afford to own a home shouldn't be in one since well it clearly hurt the economy, but it's a dream I haven't given up on. That is what you dream of as a kid, your dream job, your car and a home. I feel like a home would give my life stability in finally setting roots someplace. For so long I've gone where the wind has taken me, or where I have followed it to, and never really created my own home. To make a goal happen you have to commit to it and I have yet to commit to this goal because I still haven't decided if it is prudent. Too bad, on paper it is a bad idea if not a down right impossible one. We'll see I guess.
A while back I wrote about my saga with my car and a flat tire. Today I took my car in to get the tire checked out to make sure it was safe to drive on. Well I pretty much found out that once you get a flat on the type of tires I have, you have to get a new tire. They run about $425 I'm told. Yeah, ridiculous, even for these pretty impressive tires that run flat. So I'm going to have to shop around and get this taken care of. This is not a bill I'm looking forward to.
All this talk about the anniversary of the moon landing has been educational. I really enjoyed the following video. Buzz Aldrin Punches Moon Landing Conspiracy Theorist In The Face (VIDEO)
Aldrin tells the man to get away from him, and when he refuses, Aldrin promptly punches him in the face. The guy did have it coming, at least that is what a judge decided. Of course, I have a feeling that that punch to the face was probably staged.
In Harry Potter news, Emma Watson Is Going to College At Brown
Watson, 19, will be attending Brown University in Providence, R.I., she confirmed to Paste magazine, saying, "I am [going to university in the Fall] -- to Brown, which is an Ivy League establishment in the U.S.A. I've got a place there to read literature." I respect intelligent actresses.
I am always impressed with what people decide to study. Here was one study that I thought validated common sense. Different Friendship Styles For Boys And Girls: Study
The thing I love about girls' BFFs is that the forever part is very rare I think. Not mentioned in the study is fact that girls seem to go through many best friends over the years. BFRN? (right now). Then you have those girls whose main core of friends are that of guys. I've met girls that just don't get along well with other girls. Friendships in general are complicated.
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