I had been getting to work late for a variety of reasons. So last night I fall asleep early. Then, unexpectedly, I get a phone call late at night. I knew better than to answer it, but I did. By the time I got to bed, any advantage I had gotten from falling asleep early had been lost and the morning was just as hard. But I pulled my self together and got in my truck and even to work half an hour early. It also happens to be the same day my very punctual bosses show up an hour late. I'm one of those people that thrives on praise and acceptance, which means when I do something good I like to have someone say, 'hey great job' or even just see it. I know it is good things you do when no one is watching that shows your true character, but I already think I'm awesome, I don't need to prove it to myself. If I let myself down, well I'm the first to forgive.
I'm starting to feel better from those headaches I have been having. I've decided they have something to do with my sinues even though my allergies haven't been as bad as they were before finals. I just want to go back to feeling normal. Speaking of, I need to make some big important lifestyle changes. I see myself headed down a path of high blood pressure, expanding waistlines and decreased enjoyment of life and I know I need to start eating right and all that bull we all know but don't do. The way things are works for me, but it is slowly making things worse. I can fight it and change it for a while, but I know I'll go back to it because it is so easy. How do you make yourself want something? Is it out of fear? Fear I might get sick, fear the hotness of the women I date will depend in part upon how unhealthy I'm becoming. That isn't a good way to live I don't think. I need to figure it out and do it fast because well the reality of the fear is growing and a bigger monster is harder to kill than a smaller monster even though I know how to kill both, but don't know how to keep the smaller one from delveloping.
I watched OutFoxed the documentary on Fox News. Some people say it is a very good movie on how biased Fox is, but I say that it outstanding, even though you probably won't care. I just felt like, ah Fox, you assholes, look at you, you kidder you. I feel like we have just accepted the way they work and feel like it is just part of the way things work. I liked the part about the Fox Effect and how because it makes them so much money their tactics were spreading into other news networks, which, well that part really pisses me off.
I had dinner with my friend Julia. She is about to turn 21 years old and hopefully her bday party will be fun. I always forget she is a year younger than my little brother. She turned out to be a pretty good friend. What I think is cool about Julia other than the who she is part, is that she comes at this world with completely different experiences than me. From where she grew up to her views on school, money and her work ethic. They are all remarkably mature and a lot more disciplined than mine. I probably didn't think about half the stuff she thinks about when I was her age. I had no clue how law school worked at that age, yet due to her boyfriend, she knows the drudge of barbri and the bar exam, how to pick schools, how the job application process works. I did not even have a real office job until after I graduated from college and she has had many. I don't know, sometimes you look at people and you just think, good job.
It is memorial day weekend and my plans for going to AC and winning lots of poker money has not panned out. This is probably for the best since I haven't been able to take down the 5 cent 10 cent games yet, which should probably come first. I think I'm going to start to get my life together. My room is a mess, my house is a mess, my fridge is empty and its like a tornado has hit my life. From papers to books to highlighters all over the place sprinkled with mail. I don't even know where to start, maybe unpacking.
So I have finished watching the last season of the OC. I stopped watching the show due to conflicts and just DVRed them thinking I might watch later. It took me a lot of TV watching, but now I am done with the season finale. My guess is that they will do one more season just like that 70s show and then end the series.
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