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"No one gossips about other people's secret virtues." - Bertrand Russell

I remember when I was younger, I had a friend that lost a pet. It really hit my friend hard and though I felt bad for my friend, part of me just couldn't understand the sadness because I had never yet really loved a pet. Once I got Koki, the thought of losing her is beyond believe. You feel selfish for feeling that way because people pass away and that is much worse, yet I know I'd feel terrible. Growing up, we had lots of animals around the house, mainly outdoor cats, and they died, a lot. All kinds of ways. You just got used to it, I never paid them much attention nor took my sister seriously when she was sad that yet another cat was hit by a cat. I knew there would be more cats. Then I got a pet and that cold feeling is something I'll never be able to have again. A friend of mine has a cat that she loves who is sick. She knew when she got her that she her sickness might win over, but there was always hope. Atari has so much energy and was so alive it was hard to imagine the sickness setting it. It finally caught up to her, and now her immume system is now weak and she has been getting worse. She had spent a lot of money to make sure this is what is wrong with her and to get medicine, but these things can only delay things and we dont' even know how long. This is a terrible position to be in, for her and for Atari. I feel badly for her and am myself feeling down that this innocent kitten is having to go through this. I wish there was something I could do. She asked me a question today.

What would you do if it were Koki?

I've thought about that, thought about it a lot, when we first found out and now that she got sick. If Koki were sick I think at first I'd be selfish and keep her with me because it would be so hard for me to let her go. I think that once I saw she was in true pain, I'd have to let her go. I think I would have to be there holding her though it if they would let me because I would want her to go knowing I was there with her until the end. This makes me really sad and I hate that atari has to go through this.

There are couples that you look at and admire because they seem so much in love. They look like the perfect couple, always happy to be together and just two great people. It makes you think that this is the way relationships should be. Sometimes these relationships end and it is hard to comprehend. There might be great couples out there, but it doesn't mean that every great relationship was meant to end in marriage.

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