Supercalafragilisticexpialidocious

"A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." -Hugh Downs

That was an unexpected break. I guess I just got used to writing about what I was doing, instead of what I was thinking and when I got into the routine of work and staying home for the weekend, I felt like I had less things to talk about. Things are weird like that I think. But I'm resolved to get back to getting my random thoughts out since there are also so many in my head.


Last week I started the week feeling sick. I tried some of those gel swabs that you put in your nose. The idea seemed weird, but I figured why not give it a try, I had nothing to lose. I don't know if it was the placebo effect or what, but I did get better faster I would say. It wasn't too bad and reminded me of the days when I used to use Vicks. I wonder if that stuff actually helps. I never use it much, maybe because when I was younger it seemed to be the solution for everything. I had never had a doctor prescribe Vicks to me, but I did get better and I am here today, so maybe I shouldn't complain.

March Madness. All my teams are out now, but I've enjoyed watching the games. Next year I'm definitely getting a pool, of which this year I would of lost so much money on. HD basketball is so much better than standard definition. The coolest thing was how I read this article on how this would be the year that none of the #1 seeds would make it into the final four. Then we find out that all 4 #1 seeds made it.


I ran into this article last week. I didn't expect to hear that so I figured I'd share. Fighting with spouse good for your health. There is this pregnant man story out too, I'll let ya check that out for yourself. Wasn't there a movie about that in the 80s?

Friday night we had a poker night at Oscars. We have so many people that want to play, but when the day comes, we don't get them to show up. It was 4 of us. Oscar and two of his friends who came up from San Antonio. I had a good time, it was a 10 dollar buy in and I won 20 bucks or so in a 4 person game, so I can't complain. I was frustrated because a lot of the math I once new very well is starting to slip. Like figuring out the odds on a flush draw, or an up and down straight draw. I remembered, just took me longer.

So I move into this new house April 20th. I feel weird saying that because it sounds like I bought a house where in reality I'm just renting. But it is brand new, so that is really cool. I have been thinking about it a lot. From all the logistics like setting up internet, cable, light, gas and water. (Yes that is the order I seem to value things in.) Then the what will go where and how the move is going to go. We have a lot of stuff to move and a lot of mine is still in Edinburg. I need a dresser, but I think that is going to have to wait.

Here is some self talk that was going through my head the other day. I sometimes feel like telling myself, "Are you seriously trying to bottom out and be completely without anything before you decide to become prosperous? Maybe you don't need that kind of motivation. Maybe you have enough motivation with how things currently are. I do give it to you, you did find a way to make it worse than a person with your resources could of made it." Then I think, that isn't very motivating and those types of thoughts just make me want to say, "screw you, I'm not going to change just because you're stating the obvious to me, don't you think I'm quite aware of what is going on," while continuing the self destructive behavior in some sort of defiance. What I am going to do is to forgive myself for getting into this mess instead of letting it eat up at me. It took a lot of ingenuity to get into this type of predicament, most people probably couldn't do it to the extent I did. Forgetting about the big picture and the thought of how the journey is impossible and if possible would take at least 10 years to get out of and just focus on each day, each decision and try to make the best and most responsible decision you can. Sometimes it will mean walking away, others it will mean splurging (I will not sacrifice my happiness just to punish myself for past wrong decisions (investments)). Just keep working hard and it will all fall into place. Once you are doing that, then you can create a plan of action and just stick to it, knowing you will falter, but will just get back on the plan. -- So these are the thoughts that go through my mind as I notice that the whole in my pocket isn't going away and it isn't for lack, but because of decisions I have made.

sometimes trying to avoid something by causing it is the thing you should be avoiding