Love me if you Dare

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." - Mother Teresa

Sometimes things look like they are going well and you wait for that moment for the carpet to get pulled from under you. That moment knows just how to find you, it finds you when you relax and start to enjoy yourself. I've known that moment well.

I took Koki and Mia to the vet today. I called and made an appointment, but just like an eye doctor, appointments are for show, and it didn't really matter when I showed up. Of course I got there on time and had to wait. I think the landlord saw me when I put the cats in the truck, so that might not be good. End of story, $150. That is love I tell you. So I go in and Koki and Mia stopped meowing when they see the dogs on the waiting room. Not so tough when they see bigger animals. This might seem weird, but I don't know Koki or Mia's bdays. I have started to forget even the month they were born in, so I'm losing track of their ages as time goes on. I really should figure this out and write it down. I lied to the vet and gave them vague estimates. I went in to see the doctor and a nurse came in. Koki hissed at her. Koki is usually sweet with other people, she did go crazy when Mia came, but I thought she was better. She must really not like the vet. The nurse said she was very possessive of me and also said koki has a small, but very nice face. I never thought of her face as small. Things didn't get better when the doctor came in and gave her a rabies shot. The doctor did tell me that I didn't need to get the leukemia shots for the cats because they don't interact with other cats, so I should save the money, but then he gave them the shots anyway and they were on the bill. I guess it is better that they have them. This is what I learned, I got medical confirmation that Koki is indeed a fat ass. I guess Herbert and everyone else was right. She weighed 11 lbs, which I guess isn't good. The doctor told me to put her on a diet if I want her to live a long life. No more eat when you want for Koki. I also learned that Koki and Mia have ear mites, which explains the stratching of the ears. I have medication to give to them to help this problem. The problem is that I don't know how to check if they are gone. The doctor had to leave for an emergency, and I guess the fact I was paying double for the same visit (in fees) since I had two cats, didn't give me much time to shoot the shit with him. 6 more months until the next appointment, but if the cats are healthy, I'll probably wait until a year.

I rented a movie on netflix for Angie. It is a French film called Love me if you Dare. I enjoy foreign films, but I don't actively seek them out. I guess because of that, I've only seen very good ones. I enjoyed this movie. It was different and it kept my interest, though it did drag a bit at the end, the premise was good. In short, the movie is about dares. We had some Nicaraguan food, which was very good, but still tasted like most latin american food I have had. They, like everyone else, love their plantains. I tried the plantain chips, which were starting to grow on me, but I'm not not feeling the fried plantains. I got to meet Joe, the cat Angie is taking care of. He is a cute kitten, just a few weeks old, but not as good looking as Koki if you ask me. He has this little tiger look, but he is really sickly, he needs all kinds of medication. Hopefully he heals up and grows up to be healthy. I learned today at the vet there are 7 (maybe 12) cats born for each baby in the United States. That is why there are so many strays and why so many have to be killed.

When you look at my life and different aspects of it, I see themes. There is a common denominator in all things that go wrong in your life and that is you. So be it love, academics, health, church or friendships, when things go wrong, you should probably look inward first. I talk of doing this, but I don't think I do it enough. Of course the one I tend to talk about the most is relationships. I guess when you have an approach to things, you tend to try to make the approach work for you, instead of changing that approach. Then I spend so much time thinking of that approach and not my approach to school, to friends, to life. It might explain why I'm a slow running, single, non-guitar playing, monolingual, and mediocre student.

Everytime you meet a girl you hear, "I don't get along with girls, all my friends are boys." I bet those girls you are talking about are those that have friends that are only guys too. The question comes, can a guy and a girl be just friends. I think they can, but I think most of the time there is a sexual interest on one side. Most of the time on the side of guys, cause you don't have to like someone to have sexual interest in them. Here is a conversation I found that I found interesting.

Female comment:
I don't know if this has been discussed properly and I couldn't find it if it was. Like in the movie When Harry Met Sally, I wish to discuss the topic that can men and women can really be just "friends" or does one of them inevitably HAVE to have a sexual attraction to the other? My opinion is that women can definitely have male friends that they are not sexually attracted to, (I have been friends with guys and I swear I really, really don't ever want to have sex with them) and I find that they are just funny or smart or whatever, and I enjoy their company, just as I would another female with the same attributes. But I find it difficult to believe that any man would want to INSTIGATE a platonic friendship with a girl that they were not sexually interested in, because of their genetic makeup. Please tell me, guys, if this is not correct!!! I am curious to know if any guys out there have ever INSTIGATED a friendship with a female that they would not ever have sex with in a million years. I don't think it counts as a male/female friendship for a guy if the girl instigated the relationship....The reason I use the key word "instigate" is because I've never known a man to be friends with a girl they wouldn't want to get in the sack with...
Male comment:
I think for most men the point is that there is RARELY a time that, if the moment came up, they would elect not to have sexual contact with a female friend. In HS and college, I ended up hooking up with most of my female friends, whether I wanted to date them or not. Sometimes, they liked me in romantic ways, sometimes they did not, sometimes they had b/fs and were cheating on them and still didn't have romantic thoughts about things. This is why men have to take a view on their g/f's male friends: It is axiomatic for most men that your g/f's male friends would have sex with her if they could, simply to do it. Without evaluating other factors (they would but they like you, they would but they won't help someone cheat, they would but they would be cheating, they would but... something else), there is no trusting other men unless you have an affirmative reason to do so. This is why there are so many posts on here about g/fs hanging with other men - either she doesn't know what people are like, she doesn't care, or she conviently enjoys lying to herself.

So yeah, there are many views on this, this being only two, but I think Chris Rock has a good one on this topic too. My view is that I'll always be sexually attracted to attractive women, but if I was in love or in a relationship, I wouldn't act on those feelings because I would have something that is more valuable. It's that moment when you don't see your relationship as valuable that things tend to go wrong.

cake and eat it too - sucks to be the cake.