Rehab

"Rationalization may be defined as self-deception by reasoning." - Karen Horney

Let me finish on what happened on Tuesday. I made it through class and then went back to the hotel for lunch. We had fish for lunch. I don’t like fish, nor eat it much, but figured that I would try something new. It actually wasn’t too bad, except for the bones. I sat with a table of new people, but didn’t socialize too much because I was feeling like shit. I then went to my room to nap. I took some medication and slept. I woke up and took more med and slept some more. I was sick as a dog and honestly felt like I was locked in some small rehab room with no contact with the outside world going through detox. It was horrible and considering how thin the walls are, I’m sure my neighbors were not too happy with my blowing of my nose. I finally ran out of medicine and couldn’t sleep anymore at 5am so I just got up and took a shower and then read for class.

I showed up to the lab early and found out that Deep Throat came out. I sat through class where we were broken up into groups. We talked about regulating the internet and the debate was loud, but I stayed out of it because I wasn’t feeling well and it was just going in circles. It was hard for me to stay quiet, but I mumbled to those around me enough to get it out of my system. There is this girl in my class that I met early on who I thought was cool, but the more I hear her talk, the more I know she is really mean. She isn’t mean to me, but mean to other people and I tend to judge people based on how they treat others. She is condesending and and very full of herself. She is nice to me though, so I won't complain too much.

In Comparative, I started to feel sick again. I had ran out of medication, so I’m hoping to go to the pharmacy and try to buy something. It going to be hard because if I translate wrong, I might end up with cough medicine instead of cold medicine. My professor is a priest, so as I sit here, I pray that I might feel better, hoping that God will listen a little closer because a priest is near me. Seriously, this class is lasting forever. I feel like I am just staring at the clock watching minutes tick.

After class I rushed out and ran to the pharmacy. I tried to explain to the woman what was wrong and she sold me some medicine. I went upstairs and compared it to my multi-symptom Tylenol and most of the ingredients matched, so that was great. I took two and went to lunch. At lunch I met a new guy named Holt from Arkansas. He was a nice guy and actually reminded me of my friend Jerry from Texas. After lunch, I went and took a nap and then tried to get a poker game together. We didn’t get enough people, so we decided to do it another day. I brought poker chips and cards, you should never leave home without them. I then decided to go for a walk to the monastery and took some pictures. Look at me taking walks in the middle of the day. I returned home and took another sick nap. I woke up at 10pm when Bianca called to invite me to dinner. They reason we went so late is that places don’t open for dinner until 9pm here, or at least that’s what I hear.

I went with Bianca and Sarah to a Chinese restaurant. We ordered a meal for two and it easily fed three. I’m not too much of a Chinese fan, but the food was good and the place was very nice. The people working there were Chinese and worked very hard to learn Spanish, so its funny how a person like me who doesn’t speak Spanish too great is trying to talk to a waiter who also doesn’t speak Spanish well either even though our original languages are much different. After dinner, it was a little past midnight and I saw a group of students going out. I haven’t gone out since the first night, but I figure it’s more important that I get healthy right now.

6/2/05 the next day

I am having to deal with St. Thomas Fin Aid from Spain. This is hard considering the distance, the time difference and my not having easy phone nor internet access. They gave me too much money in my refund because they didn’t plan on my getting a single room in Spain, so now I owe them money before they will release my transcripts which I need for my applications. I hope to get that all taken care of soon.

I woke up on Wednesday feeling much better, but still clearly sick. I took some medicine and feel like I can beat this with one more day. One thing I have noticed is that I have not had too terrible of a time getting up in the morning. I’m one of those people that sleeps a lot, but here I have been able to get up in the morning and despite the health thing, have felt really awake. Now, I do admit it might have to do with the many naps I have taken and the fact I haven’t really been up late.

I ran into Sarah on my way to class and we get to the computer lab early, but the lab was not open, which sucks because it makes coming early to class useless. They finally opened it and I sent my St. Thomas emails out. I hate not having interent, have I mentioned that, well I will, and many times.

My Cyberlaw class, well I don’t have too to say about what happened today, just that my cyber class seems to deal mainly with porn. It is kind of funny how we talk about porn so much, but never really talk about porn. The class is interesting, but the same people talk too much, so I try to keep my mouth shut, but I don’t think I’m doing too good of a job at it.

My other class, Comparative, is hard to explain. I worry that I am not worried about this class. I am usually pretty tired in this class and all I can think about is what I’m going to get for lunch. Look at the thoughts that are in my mind, food…talk about focusing on the minute.

Lunch was a bit empty because a lot of people left on their weekend trips. Some friends I know left for Portugal. The food again was unqiue, but I ate it. After, I walked down with some friends to Burger King. It was a few miles away, and I didn't go to eat, but to find out where it was and shop at a supermarket. Well I get my water, but totally forget to get my hangers, so I still need to find those.

A well needed hiatus