Taken Away

Girls, girls, girls. Why do I spend so much of my life thinking about them? I bet if I didn't, I'd be so much more productive. I'd probably write about other more interesting things as well. You can sit there and list all the things you want from that perfect girl, but in the end, the girl you end up choosing won't be what you thought you wanted, but something different that you fell in love with for reasons other than the ones you might have thought. This won't stop me from thinking about things I want from a girl. One thing that I feel is the most important, is that she like me. What I mean here is like really like, you know smitten. If you are having to work hard to make a girl like you, then it's probably true that she either doesn't like you for you or doesn't like you enough for it to be worth it. I don't want to find a girl that likes me, but not enough. That is a terrible way to start something and it's always a terrible way to end things. I understand that anything must grow and develop, and you will probably reach that point over time. It's not what I mean, its just like when you first fall for someone, you have that crush feeling, wanting to talk to them and spend time with them, it such a great feeling. Imagine that feeling an entire relationship, for an entire lifetime. But if you start off without that feeling, won't it all just be an uphill battle? Doesn't another problem come when the girls that actually feel that way about you are the girls you don't end up liking. I'll admit that, but it doesn't mean I don't have a right to want that from a girl I feel that way about. I don't want to be expendable, I want the lack of my presence to be noticeable because if I'm just anyone else then why risk such an important thing such as my heart. If I am forgettable, then I'd rather not invest my time. I'll probably risk it anyway, but at least I can know that I shouldn't have. What a great time in life right now, law school, a time I don't have to worry about girls, yet somehow I know my lack of time won't make the issue any less significant. I heard a law student ask a panel about relationships in law school. A girl who is at the top of her class who recently got married said,
"If your relationship is strong, it is something you want and you are in love, then you will make it through law school, but if it is not, then law school is a great excuse to get out the relationship." So is any other obstacle I think.

I have done my laundry, cleaned my bathroom, installed my dust buster charger, vacuumed, written an entry here and yet my Torts Outline is still not done. What is wrong with me?