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Saturday, October 29, 2011

Splitting Image

"There are two things in life for which we are never truly prepared: twins." -Josh Billings

I have always found identical twins interesting.  As a kid I always wondered what it would be like if I had a twin sibling, well that and being left handed....and how cool it would be to fly, but I digress.  How crazy would it be for there to be another person who looked just like me, with the same genetic information, but still a completely different person.  The closest I could use to compare was that I was lucky enough to have many siblings including one brother, but the idea of twin I didn't know about crossed my mind.

I haven't personally known too many pairs of identical twins in my life, but I have known some.  In Junior high, there was a girl, who I hate to say I don't remember her name, that was a twin that had a crush on me, or so said her letter.  I remember thinking that I really wished I liked her cause how cool is it that she was a twin.  I never really got to know her though as we went to different schools.  My sophomore year in high school I met a girl who was a few grades older than me and was also a twin. We became good friends and it was the first time I started seeing twins as two separate individuals rather than as one entity.  I grew to know her well in a short time, but I didn't know her sister very much at all. They had different personalities from what I could tell and my childhood preconceptions were being shattered or more appropriately educated the more I got to talk to her.  The cool thing was how rarely it actually came up.  I remember thinking that it was weird that I was just good friends with one of them, but not both.  It didn't take long to realize how much that didn't make sense and in retrospect, I feel silly having thought things like that.

That same year I also became friends with another girl who was a twin and this time she was younger than me.  I got to know both her and her sister, but grew much closer to one.  She was probably the person that taught me the most about how everyone is their own unique individual and the effects of viewing people as a pair.  I also got to observe the bond that some twins have.  It doesn't take long to get past all the childish questions, but they were so much fun to ask.  Can you read each other's minds? do you feel each other's pain? how did they not mix you up as kids? who is older? How do people tell you apart? Have you guys ever pretended to be each other? etc.  This is actually in a small way similar my experience with one of my first openly gay friends where I was able to get out all my silly questions upfront and then just get to know them as a person after.  I always enjoyed trying to tell identical twins apart. There were other twins in my school, but I just didn't know them as well.

I always thought that when I was ready to have kids, how great would it be if I had twins. It is a random comment I have made to family and friends. Yeah, I assume it would make the whole raising a baby thing twice as hard, but in the end you would have two kids in the same time it would take to raise one, though the effort and expense would probably also double.  Maybe I view raising a child as such an enormous undertaking that I'd rather get two out of the way at once rather than have to go through it twice. Considering that I've waited to get married or have kids it would also let me have a bigger family than I might otherwise have had.

The thing is that twins don't run in my family, so the chances are low, unless I married a person who had twins in their family.  I'm not completely knowledgeable about the science, but that is how I generally understand it. I also remember the adage, be careful what you wish for.  I probably haven't thought much about this since I was much younger, but it has recently come to mind and it brought back a lot of memories.  Twins are rare, which is what makes them interesting.

shellfish

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Apple II


"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart." - Steve Jobs 

I found out last Wednesday that Steve Jobs had passed away.  I wasn't surprised, but I was still sad to hear the news.  I was never a big Apple person, but I do own an iPhone, MacBook and iPad, so I guess I'm more of an Apple person than I thought. Steve Jobs was pretty inspiring and makes me really look at my own life and if I'm really working towards my full potential. I'm impressed with his life story and though I personally have issues with some of Apple's labor practices over seas, it doesn't stop me from buying Apple products, so I don't say much about them.

I don't remember how old I was when we got our first computer, but it was an Apple.  It was an Apple II+ which my dad bought at a garage sale. My research shows that it was introduced in 1979, so we got it many years after in possibly the mid 80s around 2nd grade. It as new to me and awesome.  Plus, going from no computer to your first computer is a huge milestone.

What I remember most was the green screen monitor, the car racing game and the dot matrix printer.  You know, the type with the holes on the sides of the paper that fed through the printer.  There was a program called "The Print Shop" and you could print banners.  I LOVED printing banners and thought the idea was so awesome.  It is funny that since technology advanced making that long paper unnecessary, we lost the ability to print out long banners.  That is a setback in my opinion still today. You could even make your own greeting cards, which I thought was cool, but never used the function, except maybe once for invitations.  I remember getting invitations that were printed from the Print Shop and how cheap they seemed.  But back to the printer, man, I would just love watching it print, each line and how memorized I was.

Later on, we moved on to getting a PC and my love for computers grew.  I spent a lot of time on it and wanted to learn everything about.  I started in the AOL days and quickly learned how to get free services.  I'll never forget my 14.4k modem and that momentous day when I got to upgrade to a 52k modem.   I spent a lot of times in chat rooms and enjoyed editing my AOL profile, which was kind of like the first Facebook since you could search other people's profiles and add them to your buddy list.  Do chat rooms even still exist?  I haven't used one since high school.

I never learned to program, something I regret to this day, but I spent enough time playing with computers that in college I was able to get a job as a computer helpdesk technition, helping people solve their computer programs over the phone and in person.  Even today, I can help most friends with their computing problems, but I'm still a bit behind the times. I have seen technology pass me by and I just focus on the things that interest me.

I never went back to Apple until the iPhone came out.  Then about 2 years ago, I got my first MacBook and really like it.  I still use my PC as my main desktop computer, but really like my MacBook for everything else.  I even got an iPad for my father who seems to enjoy it.

So those are my computer nerd stories. Yeah, I don't know Steve Jobs, but from what I know of him, his work, I'm sorry that he had to pass away so young.  But man, it also makes you feel like no matter how crazy rich you are, you might be able to delay death, but once you die, you take nothing with you.  That in part does inspire me to just follow my heart.

peace of mind



Monday, October 03, 2011

Looking for my whole life


"Fortune and love favor the brave." -Ovid 

I know this has been a trending topic in my entries recently, but love is definitely in the air.  I got some pretty exciting news this month, twice.  First, one of my closest friends since elementary school just got engaged to a wonderful woman.  Then, not too long after, a good friend of mine who I met in college also got engaged to a great woman.  How cool is that?  I am very happy for both of them and, of course, for their fiances as well.

There is something about knowing a person as an individual and then watching them meet a person they fall in love with and watching as they grow as a person.  You can see the happiness in their eyes and in their demeanor.  This is going to be one of my shorter entries as I just wanted to memorialize my excited feelings in my blog, but I look forward to watching everything develop leading up to their big days.

joy