Study Harder...ok then just Study

“I used to wake up at 4 A.M. and start sneezing, sometimes for five hours. I tried to find out what sort of allergy I had but finally came to the conclusion that it must be an allergy to consciousness.” - James Thurber quotes (American Writer, 1894-1961)

http://allergies.about.com/od/spring/a/blaafa041806.htm

2006 Spring Allergy Capitals (2005) (2004)

3. Boston, MA (47) (32)
9. Washington, DC (16) (97)
22. Syracuse, NY (42) (76)
23. Miami-Ft.Lauderdale, FL (100) (100)
96. McAllen, TX (76) (24)

And I thought I had it hard growing up. No wonder I didn't feel as sick in Miami.

I'm trying to study for finals. If you know me, then you know exactly what this is like and if you don't, then just feel sorry for my self-destructive behavior.

WSOP

Easter Monday

"Be a good listener. Your ears will never get you in trouble." - Frank Tyger

Saturday I had lunch with my aunt and uncle. It is always great seeing them. I probably talk to them too much about God, but they are very kind to me and I really appreciate that. It was a very good meal. Sometimes you can see that communication is usually the key to disputes between people. People see things from their own point of view and think the other person is being irrational, while the other person thinks the same thing. Sometimes people agree, but are upset over a smaller issue that lies in the background, something a simple apology could fix, but the bigger issue in the fore gets even bigger.

I spent Easter at home alone this year. I'm kind of starting to get the hang of spending hoildays alone. I took Koki for a walk (well she kind of takes me for a walk) and spend the rest of the day going insane from allergies. I spent a lot of time on the phone with family, so that helped.

This weekend a very close friend of mine unexpectedly lost his sister. It broke my heart to hear the news. Him and his family are in my thoughts and prayers. This is something that nobody should have to go through. All I could think about was the pain they must be going through and how little there is I could do to make it hurt less. When I lost my sister, he was there for me and that support I will forever be greatful for. I wish I could be down there. Hopefully his family will have the support of family and friends who will be there for them.

Herding Cats

"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." -Isaac Asimov

Classes are winding down and finals are 2 weeks away...I feel like I want to be done with school, but maybe it is because I'm working and going to school. I complain about this a lot. Instead of the best of both worlds, you get the worst of both. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy school and love my job, just miss the days of undergrad where I had the whole day to myself except when I should of been in class. Now each day I wake up like a normal working person, go to work and get to leave early (which is where my productivity would have ended in the real world anyway) and off to class. I guess I shouldn't complain, it does pay the rent and probably helps a lot with my poker habit/hobby/addiction/curse/fun.

Every Weds at work there are free donuts. I usually nab one before they are all gone. Today I didn't have one. Is that self control or did I just increase my donut craving. I have also been doing this thing where I make this green tea they have at work and drink one cup daily. At first I did it because tea has caffinee, or so I think, and I thought it might wake me up while maybe being good for me. So I'll keep drinking one and see how it goes.

I was thinking of going home for easter, but I can't justify flying to texas for less than 2 days. The next week my cousin is getting married, same thing, 2 days and I should probably be studying. Thing is that after finals I'll get to take a week off to go home, but then I'll probably want to enjoy the time to myself.

Do you know you can't take cats for walks? Doesn't stop me from trying. Maybe I should of started them out at kittens. Now they have a leash and harness, so they had better learn. Things I'll do on a sunny afternoon to not write that paper.

I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. This isn't the usual insomnia crap where my mind is racing, I think I just had too much caffinee in my system and my body couldn't calm down. At one point I woke up and thought, shit I'm going to die. Not like right now, but at some point. Then you get the quick, wow, I'm living here in this reality, but I'm going to die and I might go to heaven or cease to exist, but either way I'll never be the same me that I am right now. (At least I'm hoping I'll know more.) I don't much mind the idea of ceasing to exist or the heaven part since well I don't have much choice, I mind the part where I have to die. I've gone over it and there is just no good way. So I'm not worried about being dead, just about dying. I don't get these thoughts a lot, mainly because questioning your existance can kind of put you in a state of endless questions. I'd rather just live the life I got and pertend this is the world I live in and let everything sort itself out once I'm dead. Doesn't it sound morbid when I say the word dead? But last night, was one of those times it just popped in my head...but I put it aside and didn't think much of it after, but it always makes an impression.

there is something nice about "how was your day dear?"

Immigration

"Those who deny freedom to others, deserve it not for themselves; and, under a just God, can not long retain it." - Abraham Lincoln

April 10th is a nationwide day for immigration demonstrations. They are going on all around the country and even here in DC. I won't be going today, mainly because I have class during the time it is scheduled, and I don't have any friends that are going, so I wouldn't have anyone there with me. I also wonder, since the legislation feel through and now Congress is on a 2 week vacation, if they will even be around to see the demonstration.

Thanks to Rick, I found out that my MPRE score was out today. I am ethically legal in 50 states bitches! I needed an 85 for VA, FL and TX and I got more than 100, so I'm glad to have that out of the way. I was told it was harder than I might expect, and I guess I let that scare me a bit, but I should of trusted my gut. The test was by no means easy, but I'm glad I didn't read the entire book I had to study. One less thing I have to worry about. Now I just need to figure out a way to pass my classes and then go through my 2 months of Barbri hell and take my bar exam and start off my career.

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