Saturday I did not make the most of my time considering I didn't go home for the weekend so I could get some important things done. I battled traffic and met Ericka for dinner in the evening. She treated me to a really nice Cuban, maybe Puerto Rican place that had really good food even though I didn't make a great selection. It is a funny 90/10 discussion, but no need to talk about it again. The ride home wasn't good, but very informative to say the least. I think I ask too many questions. Me and my expectations. We hung out and talked and listened to music. Monica arrived later and she told us about the party they went to. We had ice cream and instead of going home I stayed to see a movie. It was good, but I feel like there were some big plot and character tweaks that could of made it so much better. I then came home to battle my insomnia. On the trip home I saw a car that was completely flipped over. How does that happen? Then a guy on a motorcycle with no helmet, really does he want brain damage?
Nobody leaves comments. I know people read, but yet still no comments. Fine I accept that the message board isn't used, but I would think maybe somone would have something to say about what I go on about. I'll even take a, love the quote man, they are always so good, or a here is a quote for you to use. Make me feel better people.
Sunday I still did not wake up early. A friend of mine came over and picked me up to go and see an outdoor concert. That was the plan, but it didn't work out that way. We ended up just having dinner and drinks and calling it a night early. I relaxed at home for a bit and then drove over to north Austin to hang out with Ericka. I ran into traffic and the trip was well over an hour long. We watched 20/20 and then went to pick up a movie. I picked Vacancy because it was a movie I had wanted to see in the theaters but was not able to when it was out. I had heard a good review. We only got part way through the movie before we decided to just watch it another time. Instead we had one of those talks that neither of us wanted to have, but that was important we did. I drove home knowing I made a bad decision, but I do think everything will be ok.
How many times can I talk about it being 6am and I'm still not able to find the sleep I want. I have no trouble finding it during the day it seems. My father called me on Monday and we talked about him getting tested for colon cancer. I know the test is going to suck, but I think it is good for us to know that he is cancer free. I hope he does get heart tests too since heart disease is something I worry about.
I'm doing great on staying away from the news...so great that today when I found out that Gonzo was Gone-zales (gotta love countdown) I felt like wow there was actually some news when I wasn't watching and though I have been waiting for this many months, I found out it was ok that I found out a few hours later.
Sunday was the season finale of Big Love. I'm a big fan of the show now. I was unhappy when the possible 4th wife was written out of the show, or so I thought, and now that they brought her back I was very happy about that. I didn't like her at first. but then she became my favorite character. Now the show is over for the season. I can't wait for the fall season to begin and I can start watching all my other shows.
Monday I got my aunt's manuscript in the mail. I'm going to help convert it to text for her. That either means I am going to retype it or find a way to convert it. I look forward to reading it.
do I feel like myself yet?
marty, if i left a comment everytime i visited your blog, then you'd know exactly how often i check it and then you'd realize how much of an internet peeper i am! i need to keep some of my secrets to myself.
ReplyDeleteanyways, i can identify with your desire to become more financially responsible. actually my whole life needs an overhaul. i read this quote yesterday, "Regard illness as a gift, it can be such a powerful stimulus to change, perhaps the only thing that can force some people to resolve their deepest conflicts, successful patients often come to regard it as the greatest opportunity they have ever had for personal growth and development-truly a gift" -Dr. Andrew Weil. A part of me feels like this is true. I think I just would have continued my ho-hum life for who knows how long had this not happened. After I get rid of cancer, I can't continue how I was living, I just can't. That life feels so empty and pointless. Illness had to be my stimulus.
Now that I've talked about myself, I just want to say, you do have cool quotes! Where do you get them? :) By the way, I almost got addicted to sleeping pills at the hospital. They gave me some that just knocked me out. After they stopped giving them to me, I literally couldn't sleep. So after only sleeping like 5 hours a night for the past week, I've exhausted myself into falling asleep early. Just wanted to share. Take care!
Maria,
ReplyDeleteThanks so much! See, this is exactly what I needed. I really do wonder if people visit. I know way too much about sleeping pills, I mean I'm writing this at 4am in the morning. I hope you continue to feel better. I'm going to steal your quote...I hope I do the "greatest opportunity" thing without the "illness as a gift" part. I do need a big shock right now though. - Marty
i'll spill the beans here: you're in my favorites so it's just too tempting, all i have to do is click once and i'm on your page.
ReplyDeleteby the way, i just got an ipod (4 gigs) 2 weeks ago but before that i had a cheapie mp3 player (cost like $60) and i loved that. i went crazy in the itunes store and then remembered i used to get songs for free so i stopped. it makes me more aware of the music i like, surprisingly alot of 80s. my sister has like 2000 songs on hers and i'm like, what the hell are you listening to? i only have like 400 max.
anyways, yeah you were the only person i knew who i could tell the sleeping pill story to. mind you, they worked but once i was off them, couldn't sleep.